I'm sorry, I know exactly what that kind of pining is like. I mean just without the closeted part. Not that I ever came out back home, but I'm sure if I had it would have been fine.
You know, we still need to have that "whole thing" talk over milkshakes. I think we have a lot ore to talk about now, too.
[ Is he talking about the usernames? No. No, probably not. Just...things. ]
I do appreciate that we're talking about milkshakes in the middle of winter. Also, you were married to the woman you'd been pining over for years. I think you're allowed to have not come out.
And yeah, that's true. I just never really thought about it that much before I came here, because of that. I mean there were guys in my life I definitely felt some kind of way about, but I never wanted to complicate things by talking about it. Even when I knew Iris shared one of my crushes.
Nah, I'd still have one. But also a hot chocolate. Hot chocolate milkshake?
Maybe he did, but he just didn't realize it yet. I've definitely learned a lot about myself here, and fallen for a few people. Including my friends from home.
I've fallen for one and a half people here. I'm not counting Michael because I've been in love with him for over a decade. And Kyle half counts because I had a thing when we were kids but it never went anywhere until here.
Not true! Ever had hot chocolate-flavored ice cream? It's a thing.
Well, I'm actually the Paragon of Love so I'm not exactly normal in that regard, I guess. It's hard for me to not get feelings for people if I'm involved with them, so adjusting to people who are sort of feelings-averse here has been a challenge for me.
Oh, the feelings typically happen first unless there's some crazy Duplicity shenanigans happening, it's more. If the other person isn't feeling the feelings yet it's hard for me to turn them off. If that makes sense. I'm like a speedy bundle of feels.
That was actually how Kyle and I first um. Got involved. There was a situation where we were really leaning into our designations and it just sort of went from there. But I trust him a lot because of that. And other reasons too.
Well, sure. Kyle's... He's grown into a good man. He always seems to put things into perspective.
Okay, I have gotten roped into shenanigans in a tangential way. My first boyfriend here, Bass. He was affected by...something. There was literally civil war in the down. He went missing and when he finally came back, he was basically itching for sex. To do him credit, he did try to leave. I wouldn't let him. Not in what was out there.
He does. And yeah, that sounds like something that happened to me when I first arrived. My first experience with another guy was similar, I couldn't control my need. I felt so guilty, but he was so nice about it. He left and he's back now, but he doesn't remember.
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likesdiscipline
Date: 2023-01-19 06:47 am (UTC)You know, we still need to have that "whole thing" talk over milkshakes. I think we have a lot ore to talk about now, too.
takeyouinhand
Date: 2023-01-19 07:03 am (UTC)I do appreciate that we're talking about milkshakes in the middle of winter. Also, you were married to the woman you'd been pining over for years. I think you're allowed to have not come out.
begsforit
Date: 2023-01-19 07:09 am (UTC)Hey, there is no wrong time to have a milkshake.
And yeah, that's true. I just never really thought about it that much before I came here, because of that. I mean there were guys in my life I definitely felt some kind of way about, but I never wanted to complicate things by talking about it. Even when I knew Iris shared one of my crushes.
waitforit
Date: 2023-01-19 07:18 am (UTC)See, Michael never shared my crush. Not until we got here.
makeme
Date: 2023-01-19 07:21 am (UTC)Maybe he did, but he just didn't realize it yet. I've definitely learned a lot about myself here, and fallen for a few people. Including my friends from home.
youreabadboy
Date: 2023-01-19 07:26 am (UTC)I've fallen for one and a half people here. I'm not counting Michael because I've been in love with him for over a decade. And Kyle half counts because I had a thing when we were kids but it never went anywhere until here.
abadman
Date: 2023-01-19 07:40 am (UTC)Well, I'm actually the Paragon of Love so I'm not exactly normal in that regard, I guess. It's hard for me to not get feelings for people if I'm involved with them, so adjusting to people who are sort of feelings-averse here has been a challenge for me.
nowcome
Date: 2023-01-19 08:06 am (UTC)comestwice
Date: 2023-01-19 08:15 am (UTC)letsgoforthree
Date: 2023-01-19 08:20 am (UTC)I haven't actually gotten roped into Duplicity shenanigans. At least, not with someone I'm not already sleeping with. ...at least not sex.
goesallnight
Date: 2023-01-19 08:24 am (UTC)ifyousayso
Date: 2023-01-19 11:35 pm (UTC)Okay, I have gotten roped into shenanigans in a tangential way. My first boyfriend here, Bass. He was affected by...something. There was literally civil war in the down. He went missing and when he finally came back, he was basically itching for sex. To do him credit, he did try to leave. I wouldn't let him. Not in what was out there.
superstamina
Date: 2023-01-19 11:38 pm (UTC)boringnormalhuman
Date: 2023-01-19 11:44 pm (UTC)cutesexyhuman
Date: 2023-01-19 11:45 pm (UTC)sexyspeedster
Date: 2023-01-24 02:11 am (UTC)fastestmanalive
Date: 2023-01-24 02:58 am (UTC)captainmanes
Date: 2023-02-01 09:03 am (UTC)