I think it doesn't make me as angry because I've been there. I was like that. Before I got shot and lost my leg. Running into danger without thinking about it because I knew I was on the right side. That doesn't mean I'm happy about any of it. It's painful to see people repeat mistakes I've made, especially when I know they won't listen.
And god knows, Barry is more idealistic than I ever was. And more stubborn.
It's the how and why he did what he did. It's one thing being that type of person. It's another hearing someone's pain and risking yourself for kicks because of it.
I thought for a while it was idealism and stubborn but beginning to feel its other things, and that's where it's rough for me.
I'll just have to figure out how I feel and what I'm going to do about it, but for now? Honestly? I'm just going to be hurt and angry. I don't think I let myself feel them often enough.
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Date: 2023-10-01 03:17 am (UTC)And god knows, Barry is more idealistic than I ever was. And more stubborn.
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Date: 2023-10-02 06:24 pm (UTC)I thought for a while it was idealism and stubborn but beginning to feel its other things, and that's where it's rough for me.
I'll just have to figure out how I feel and what I'm going to do about it, but for now? Honestly? I'm just going to be hurt and angry. I don't think I let myself feel them often enough.