[ And now he's awake and so is Bass and Alex has to tell him to go back to sleep, it's nothing but his idiotic best friend. ]
Look, Kyle. I was where you are. Believe me, I got here and it was right after everything with Michael and... Well, I was just not going to participate. And if that's what you want to do, I'll back you.
But if you were doing it because of principles, you wouldn't be drinking.
uve known me my enter life manes. do i strike you as the dom type?
and i know u dont have that kind of relationship i know. that doesnt mean i dont think this is cuz of thcompany i keep. i wont stop keeping it either.
[Spending time with a collared slave and seeing a dominant makes him happy. More so than he remembers being in a long time.]
got ordered to perform. guess fucking me over w charms and costing me my best friend isnt enough.
it doesnt matter here whats going on and it isnt going to change anythin. like 18 days im going to have to play along and so will he and i hate everything. everything but brightly colored drinks. the orange one is the best
You were the quarterback. If you felt like it? Sure. With the right person, in the right circumstance. But that's the point. Very few of us are ever really only one or the other.
[ And then Alex can't help the wince. Company? He hasn't heard about any company that Kyle might be keeping. And his sleep-deprived brain begins to wonder and he can't quite shut that part off. But thinking about it and talking about it are two different things. ]
Stop being a fucking drama queen. The charms didn't cost you anything. You being an asshole did, but that was years ago.
Look, the point of this all is, they don't seem to care who you sleep with as long as you do and you're discreet. But they're all about subs and doms. So find someone who needs protecting. Who'd be eaten up by anyone else.
not in the ways the one sub im close with needs. they just need so much im not so i can give them.
[And scared more that he would enjoy doing it regularly to him as well. ]
after everything he said, and all thats happened u dont think bass would be upset about us psneding time together?
its more than sleeping with manes thats the point
been trying not sure whats going to happen.
[ And knowing he's not going to make it through things like being forced into being used publicly. The cat cafe with others around, on display, had sent him into a drinking binge as it was.]
[ Of course Kyle would be in a relationship where a sub was actually acting like a sub instead of someone like himself or Hayley. Not that Alex couldn't, of course, but it was entirely dependent on the person and the situation. Bass pulling him in by the collar? Completely different situation. ]
No. I promised him something and I've pretty much kept to the promise. The only exception happened to involve him and was because of them dosing us with...whatever the hell it was. He might be grumpy, but he's not going to begrudge me keeping your friendship. And if he were, that's be a problem that doesn't have anything to do with you in the end.
[ Never mind that he's trying not to think about how it sounds like he's talking about a relationship. A real 'I have romantic feelings for you' kind of relationship. ]
Look, give me directions to where you are and I'll come get you and walk you home.
good. glad to hear it. i need you here manes. woould respect him but glad we can still be friends.
[And those real feelings are a huge part of what he is coping with badly, with the thoughts of how much things change in a few weeks one way or another. And about Jackson's place in his pack and everything else. ]
like bass wouldnt kick my ass for that? hes right there isnt he? and he would, wouldnt he?
[ With anyone else, he's learning to accept these roles. Or he's trying to. This is Alex though, and they have been through a lot, and he hates feeling he should keep himself distant from Alex now. Because of his own secrets that he hid and how much he had hurt Alex, and all that the charms had caused between them. ]
i know you say that's on you to deal with but am i?
Why are you so worried? What, exactly, do you think Bass would do to me if he were upset?
[ Because Alex could understand Kyle asking the question once. It was actually possible that Bass would be annoyed with him for leaving in the middle of the night. And because it was Kyle, maybe even... No, not a road Alex was going down. Still, his annoyance or that other thing, Alex could deal with and he didn't think Bass was the type of person to try to ban Alex from seeing his friend when his friend needed him. It wasn't like he was going to see Kyle for a booty call or something. ]
For all that he can look scary, Sebastian's not that kind of person.
not that he would do anything not like that. more scared if theres something in your contract and...
theres a guy here tonight in trouble for helping someone else. dont want that to happen to either of you.
[Though he's pretty sure if he did something to get Alex turned out in a cat tail and short shorts, Bass might honestly snap at Kyle. And he couldn't blame him if he did.]
just dont want to see anything like tht happen to the people that matter to me.
If I got caught for something, believe me, it would be Karma. But no. Despite what Bass seems to think, the contract between us is heavy on the side of 'I can do whatever the hell I want'.
[ There's a reason for that, but it's not one he's going to be getting into. ]
I'll stay until you get to leave and then I'll make sure you get home all right. I will not, however, hold your hair for the inevitable aftermath of your drinking.
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Date: 2019-12-30 11:04 pm (UTC)Look, Kyle. I was where you are. Believe me, I got here and it was right after everything with Michael and... Well, I was just not going to participate. And if that's what you want to do, I'll back you.
But if you were doing it because of principles, you wouldn't be drinking.
What's going on?
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Date: 2019-12-31 12:41 am (UTC)and i know u dont have that kind of relationship i know. that doesnt mean i dont think this is cuz of thcompany i keep. i wont stop keeping it either.
[Spending time with a collared slave and seeing a dominant makes him happy. More so than he remembers being in a long time.]
got ordered to perform. guess fucking me over w charms and costing me my best friend isnt enough.
it doesnt matter here whats going on and it isnt going to change anythin. like 18 days im going to have to play along and so will he and i hate everything. everything but brightly colored drinks. the orange one is the best
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Date: 2020-01-01 08:11 pm (UTC)[ And then Alex can't help the wince. Company? He hasn't heard about any company that Kyle might be keeping. And his sleep-deprived brain begins to wonder and he can't quite shut that part off. But thinking about it and talking about it are two different things. ]
Stop being a fucking drama queen. The charms didn't cost you anything. You being an asshole did, but that was years ago.
Look, the point of this all is, they don't seem to care who you sleep with as long as you do and you're discreet. But they're all about subs and doms. So find someone who needs protecting. Who'd be eaten up by anyone else.
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Date: 2020-01-01 11:50 pm (UTC)[And scared more that he would enjoy doing it regularly to him as well. ]
after everything he said, and all thats happened u dont think bass would be upset about us psneding time together?
its more than sleeping with manes thats the point
been trying not sure whats going to happen.
[ And knowing he's not going to make it through things like being forced into being used publicly. The cat cafe with others around, on display, had sent him into a drinking binge as it was.]
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Date: 2020-01-04 11:03 pm (UTC)No. I promised him something and I've pretty much kept to the promise. The only exception happened to involve him and was because of them dosing us with...whatever the hell it was. He might be grumpy, but he's not going to begrudge me keeping your friendship. And if he were, that's be a problem that doesn't have anything to do with you in the end.
[ Never mind that he's trying not to think about how it sounds like he's talking about a relationship. A real 'I have romantic feelings for you' kind of relationship. ]
Look, give me directions to where you are and I'll come get you and walk you home.
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Date: 2020-01-07 12:04 am (UTC)[And those real feelings are a huge part of what he is coping with badly, with the thoughts of how much things change in a few weeks one way or another. And about Jackson's place in his pack and everything else. ]
like bass wouldnt kick my ass for that? hes right there isnt he? and he would, wouldnt he?
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Date: 2020-01-10 02:07 am (UTC)[ He might end up kicking Alex's, but that's another matter entirely. ]
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Date: 2020-01-15 04:03 am (UTC)[ With anyone else, he's learning to accept these roles. Or he's trying to. This is Alex though, and they have been through a lot, and he hates feeling he should keep himself distant from Alex now. Because of his own secrets that he hid and how much he had hurt Alex, and all that the charms had caused between them. ]
i know you say that's on you to deal with but am i?
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Date: 2020-01-26 07:32 pm (UTC)Why are you so worried? What, exactly, do you think Bass would do to me if he were upset?
[ Because Alex could understand Kyle asking the question once. It was actually possible that Bass would be annoyed with him for leaving in the middle of the night. And because it was Kyle, maybe even... No, not a road Alex was going down. Still, his annoyance or that other thing, Alex could deal with and he didn't think Bass was the type of person to try to ban Alex from seeing his friend when his friend needed him. It wasn't like he was going to see Kyle for a booty call or something. ]
For all that he can look scary, Sebastian's not that kind of person.
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Date: 2020-01-28 04:18 am (UTC)theres a guy here tonight in trouble for helping someone else. dont want that to happen to either of you.
[Though he's pretty sure if he did something to get Alex turned out in a cat tail and short shorts, Bass might honestly snap at Kyle. And he couldn't blame him if he did.]
just dont want to see anything like tht happen to the people that matter to me.
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Date: 2020-01-28 10:57 pm (UTC)If I got caught for something, believe me, it would be Karma. But no. Despite what Bass seems to think, the contract between us is heavy on the side of 'I can do whatever the hell I want'.
[ There's a reason for that, but it's not one he's going to be getting into. ]
Besides. It's too late. I'm already on my way.
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Date: 2020-02-01 02:54 am (UTC)[ He's quiet for a while and then finally hits send on what he has typed. ]
thank you. it means a lot to me.
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Date: 2020-02-05 10:08 pm (UTC)I'll stay until you get to leave and then I'll make sure you get home all right. I will not, however, hold your hair for the inevitable aftermath of your drinking.
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Date: 2020-02-10 06:39 pm (UTC)thank you.
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Date: 2020-02-10 09:00 pm (UTC)Two word: Drama. Queen.