Sometimes, being around Alex is the hardest thing in the world. He's full of want for him, coupled with the weight of all the history between them. All the times they'd pushed each other away, all the times they'd disappointed each other. There are times when that negativity is so overwhelming that it takes over everything else.
And then there are times like this, when the rest of it just doesn't seem to matter so much. When it's just the two of them, and they put away their defences, and they're themselves again like they were in high school. At times like that, like this, it's easy to be with him. It's easy to feel his warmth under his hands, to feel his breath on his ear, to feel his own heart skipping over itself because Alex is close.
They're moving together, and he can close his eyes and pretend the rest of the room just doesn't exist. Because what else really matters when the two of them have this?
He smiles, and turns his head so that his lips brush over Alex's ear. It makes them tingle, though it probably also smudges that lipstick. Nothing stays perfect forever.
"You saying you want me to stop?" He doesn't. His hands move around Alex instead, pressing into his back. "Cause I like you right here, Private. I like you like this."
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Date: 2020-07-19 01:05 pm (UTC)And then there are times like this, when the rest of it just doesn't seem to matter so much. When it's just the two of them, and they put away their defences, and they're themselves again like they were in high school. At times like that, like this, it's easy to be with him. It's easy to feel his warmth under his hands, to feel his breath on his ear, to feel his own heart skipping over itself because Alex is close.
They're moving together, and he can close his eyes and pretend the rest of the room just doesn't exist. Because what else really matters when the two of them have this?
He smiles, and turns his head so that his lips brush over Alex's ear. It makes them tingle, though it probably also smudges that lipstick. Nothing stays perfect forever.
"You saying you want me to stop?" He doesn't. His hands move around Alex instead, pressing into his back. "Cause I like you right here, Private. I like you like this."