Jesus. You'd think military doctors would know to be careful about things like that and actually read someone's medical history. Because it would have shown that there WAS history. How long ago was this?
[ Because while a part of him feels guilty that he wasn't there, he'd feel even more guilty if it was not long after they broke up. ]
I think he and Miles have hidden any history of that sort, but even just the trauma he'd been through should have made them pick something else.
Two or three years at this point. I was still on the road, but I want to say it was 2016ish. Maybe a little over a year after we met? [Time is a little fuzzy for her, those five years she spent looking for a cure for her family.]
It's Bass's history. He had to have a part in it, Alex. And I'm sure it was to keep him in the Marines. Which, honestly, he probably shouldn't be, but getting kicked out would maybe be worse.
I guess, yes. [It dawns on her what he might have been thinking.] Alex - you had nothing to do with it. Everything he saw...no one could have prevented it unless they were with him 24/7.
Believe me, I'm not saying that Bass is innocent. I'm just saying that it was likely to be Miles's idea. And a bad one because there are so many ways it could go wrong.
...I know. My head knows you're right. My heart wonders if I could have done something differently.
Maybe. But only in response to Bass's upset. Trust me--he knows it backfired. Do you think he hasn't been beating himself up since he walked in and saw Bass there? It was his worst nightmare, coming true.
I don't know. Maybe you could've, if you two had still been together, with two of you to try and pull him back, or two of you to watch them. But that doesn't mean there's anything you should have done differently. And he's good now. Stable.
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Date: 2019-08-11 11:43 pm (UTC)[ Because while a part of him feels guilty that he wasn't there, he'd feel even more guilty if it was not long after they broke up. ]
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Date: 2019-08-12 12:02 am (UTC)Two or three years at this point. I was still on the road, but I want to say it was 2016ish. Maybe a little over a year after we met? [Time is a little fuzzy for her, those five years she spent looking for a cure for her family.]
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Date: 2019-08-17 08:07 pm (UTC)So a while after we split.
[ It's not relief he feels, not really, but at least he wasn't probably the cause of the spiral. He couldn't have done anything. ]
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Date: 2019-08-18 01:11 am (UTC)I guess, yes. [It dawns on her what he might have been thinking.] Alex - you had nothing to do with it. Everything he saw...no one could have prevented it unless they were with him 24/7.
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Date: 2019-08-18 02:43 am (UTC)...I know. My head knows you're right. My heart wonders if I could have done something differently.
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Date: 2019-08-18 03:04 am (UTC)I don't know. Maybe you could've, if you two had still been together, with two of you to try and pull him back, or two of you to watch them. But that doesn't mean there's anything you should have done differently. And he's good now. Stable.
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