I can check into him and see what we can work out. The two I know are both Harley Quinn and while I trust one of them implicitly I'm not sure they're the therapists we're looking for right now.
Are you okay? I can't imagine how hard this is, but I'm going to try and work things out to make sure he's okay and he gets the help he needs.
He asked me about helping you get things he might need, and working out your visitation. I'm assuming you will be going to see him?
Harley's here? More than one? Huh. Depends on how stable Harley is herself. Could be more, could be less.
I'm...
I don't know what to think, I guess. I knew things weren't right, but I was waiting to talk about what was really going on until he was at least physically better. Don't kick a man when he's down, that kind of thing. I guess I waited too long.
You haven't run into her? Either of them? One runs a tattoo shop, the other works at the theatre. I see one of them myself for the things with Elijah and coping with that and my dad and all. The other I don't know personally.
[ He'd seen her while visiting Nate and knowing it and seeing her had been two different things. ]
The likelihood is that with time to do nothing but think he lost his tenuous control. Also, with his therapist being gone, I don't think that helped much.
Huh. Okay, I feel like an idiot. There's a Harley who's playing Roxie, but I never really thought about her being THAT Harley. I guess the whiteface makeup isn't actually makeup.
[ And suddenly the casting makes a lot of sense. ]
I mean, we both know where it started. How it started. With me.
You're going to tell me I should know who she is? We've known one another for a while, and she's been a lot of help since the separation. Amazing woman. I'm really lucky to know her.
[ She's helped him through so much. He's thankful to know her. ]
[ They both own hyenas too. One came by the house our first appointment. The other roams the theatre.
You were honest and tried to be as open as you could be with him. That is what matters, Alex. ]
Logically, I know that. But I've... I've been in the wrong so often. I've been scared so often and pushed when I shouldn't have or didn't push when I should have. I don't always trust that it's the okay kind of selfish.
You deserve to not have to live locked away in Sex City. I did that, Alex. I know what it's like. I was the one locked away so I never broke my promises. There were months I only saw him and my therapist.
That's not what I meant, Kyle. If this had been a normal city, I wouldn't have locked myself away. But I also deserve to not get pulled into the city shit with whoever happens to be there at the moment. That's an entirely different conversation than loving more than one person.
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Date: 2021-05-25 05:03 am (UTC)Are you okay? I can't imagine how hard this is, but I'm going to try and work things out to make sure he's okay and he gets the help he needs.
He asked me about helping you get things he might need, and working out your visitation. I'm assuming you will be going to see him?
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Date: 2021-05-25 10:21 pm (UTC)I'm...
I don't know what to think, I guess. I knew things weren't right, but I was waiting to talk about what was really going on until he was at least physically better. Don't kick a man when he's down, that kind of thing. I guess I waited too long.
Of course I'm coming. Just give me a list.
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Date: 2021-05-28 03:44 am (UTC)[ He'd seen her while visiting Nate and knowing it and seeing her had been two different things. ]
The likelihood is that with time to do nothing but think he lost his tenuous control. Also, with his therapist being gone, I don't think that helped much.
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Date: 2021-05-28 05:45 pm (UTC)[ And suddenly the casting makes a lot of sense. ]
I mean, we both know where it started. How it started. With me.
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Date: 2021-05-30 12:59 am (UTC)[ She's helped him through so much. He's thankful to know her. ]
[ They both own hyenas too. One came by the house our first appointment. The other roams the theatre.
You were honest and tried to be as open as you could be with him. That is what matters, Alex. ]
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Date: 2021-07-01 03:38 pm (UTC)[ There's another long moment before he responds to the second half of that. ]
I know. Doesn't mean I don't wonder if I'm being too selfish.
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Date: 2021-07-04 09:00 pm (UTC)I assume one is about a battle and one is about a hike.
[ He might just be saying that to dick with Alex now though. Maybe. ]
Alex how many people have we lost? How many have we nearly lost?
Being selfish isn't bad, as long as you're respectful of others and their needs. He needs to work with you.
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Date: 2021-07-07 10:08 pm (UTC)[ And isn't that such a lie. ]
Logically, I know that. But I've... I've been in the wrong so often. I've been scared so often and pushed when I shouldn't have or didn't push when I should have. I don't always trust that it's the okay kind of selfish.
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Date: 2021-07-08 04:05 am (UTC)You deserve to not have to live locked away in Sex City. I did that, Alex. I know what it's like. I was the one locked away so I never broke my promises. There were months I only saw him and my therapist.
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Date: 2021-08-08 09:45 pm (UTC)Probably.